TGIF, Morning Walks, SAHM

My favorite day of the work week! =)
I LOVE Fridays
...but thats not the reason for my post.

July '10 when I was able to stay home | Jayden, about 8wks 

Today when Jayden wakes up, if the sun stays out, I think we'll go for a morning walk. I really miss those now that winter is here. Every morning in the summer we'd go off on our walks, he was so little so slept on most of the walks or had to cover him because the sun was too bright, but I was a good way for me to exercise since I had no time for a gym in those early months. Anyways. I miss them. Now that he's older he can look around and enjoy being outside, a change from being cooped up in the house all week because of the dumb weather or because mommy's at work. =/

Which brings be to my next subject. WORK. I miss staying home with my baby while on leave for those short, 2 months. I see how all the other mommy's get to be SAHMs and it makes be sooooo jealous envious . I feel so horrible going to work everyday, like I'm a bad mom for not being able to see my sons firsts and enjoy these precious moments. But I guess things go this way for some families and you SAHM are so lucky to be able to be there.  ONE DAY. Maybe one day. I'll have the chance to stay home with my little man or next baby. It's just so hard right now for us. I get so fed up with work. I just wanna walk out sometimes. I just have to sit back look at my son and realize everything I do is for him. And all in all I'm doing pretty damn good at beating statistics for a 20 year old momma. I handle business. =) lol

wellllllllll baby J is up now.

until next time.